Well today was wonderful. I have a close friend who is a sales rep. for Renee’s Seeds and we hung out while she did her routes, catching up on life. We see each other often, but don’t always have time to discuss the deeper things. It was an all day thing, so I prepared everything…made my hubby breakfast, handed out farm chore assignments to the kids, had them take care of their dad, even planned for them to make homemade pizza for dinner. Bliss to be away, and I thought I had thought of everything. Then I got home (she drove) and now I can’t find my keys! Somewhere in all our journeys they slid out of my purse…sigh. If the guilt of being away all day with a dear friend wasn’t enough, now I’m feeling like an irresponsible child. I am praying they turn up when I finish calling around tomorrow. I know I should not feel guilty about time away from home, especially with my dear friend. It is good for my mental, emotional and spiritual health, and when I am healthy, I am better able to serve and love my family. It is just hard for me to let go of responsibilities. I just don’t want to disappoint anyone. Unfortunately, I have unrealistic expectations and end up disappointing myself and letting it steal my joy. I am praying my keys are found safe and sound … but if they are not, that I will still remember the joy of a day with my friend.